Sleeping Beauty

Oh Sleeping Beauty

When shall you rise

From your lovely rest?

And brighten my day a little.


As you roll about

Hair framing your face

I ask if there would be a better sight?

The world responds "No".


So rest a little longer my Lovely

Let that dream bring a smile

Across your beautiful face

And I can wait here then, happily.

A Lollipop

A highly suspicious, but well-intentioned pink, 120-year old Allen's lollipop. An inadequate representation of my love for Sweetheart.

For my Sweetheart, when we meet. It will remind me to come to you as soon as I can.

Then I will video you eating it.

Something that will only further increase your sweetness.

Hehe

One dream

Tin and Ton a.k.a The Happy Couple

The Station's Clock

How lonesome it was travelling familiar roads,

With an unfamiliar feeling lurking beneath me,

Oh what a terrible and cold time the future forebodes,

For without her I cannot find the least glee.

That famous Clock's tune isn't the same without her,

That famous Station has lost its lustre,

To go to another Station, I might prefer,

To be there requires courage I cannot muster.

Everywhere there was once Sweetheart,

Now it all feels rather bear,

But before too much sadness is to start,

I remember, that She is always there.

If I can focus on the memories of her kindness,

And her continuous loveliness and affection,

It's beauty will often causes a blindness,

And the sadness recedes into oblivion.

I love you Sweetheart.

Movie kind of kiss

Being with Tin is never ordinary. Look at this hollywood kind of kiss. Ton is really a lucky girl

Snoopness's dream(come true)

Here is the (even more) famous painting 'Snoopness's dream (come true)'

Charlie's dream

(i really think it s a nice picture...)

Snoopness's dream

This is the famous 'Snoopness's dream'

Charlie & Snoopness

Sorry for last night, darling

Darling, I am sorry for last night. I know I was being silly and childlish. Those things are out of our control and have passed already. However, Ton did feel very insecured at times. I hope you wont be sick of Ton because she couldnt feel Tin's love at times. The problem is not on Tin. Tin treats Ton perfectly well. Just that Ton was disturbed by something in the past. It s all because Ton has little confidence. She thinks she isnt good enough for Tin and people could easily rob Tin from her. She is also ashamed by herself, an average background girl who is from another country with an average looking and broken english. Nevertheless, she loves Tin and she never wants to give up the precious love they have. Ton knows she would probably screw it one day as she is too difficult and Tin will slowly step away from her.
Ton really need to forget about all of these.

Snoopness: Charlie, I am sorry for being so difficult. I am just not confident.
Charlie: My dearest friend, it's ok. I will remind you that I love you everyday. If you continue doubt, I will continue try to reaffirm my love for you and hope those doubts can slowly minimise. Dont let the doubts build, dont let our love be lost quietly. Be mad, be honest, be silly, be questioning and i will do all I can to reaffirm my love.
Snoopness: Charlie, thanks for your patience and understanding. I love you and if you ever unsure about that, just ask me how much I love you and I will do whatever it takes to show you my love and then I will wait. You can take as long as you need to question it and build up ur belief in my love and I will still be here. I have nowhere to go since I believe I belong to you only. You are my Charlie.

~~All i want to say is 'I am sorry for doubting you. I really do love you Tin Tin'~~

Happy anniversary~

They look so happy. They need a bigger word than happy to describe how they feel when they are together.

We are not just 'a' sri lankan & 'an' international. Individually, we are not perfect. But when we are together, we are 'the' couple. The couple who are perfectly happy in the relationshop

Darling, we are an awesome pair(mostly because of you). You are my first and only crush. I know I am weird that I didnt have crush for any people before. Handsome guys just dont have the trick on me. It s ok that you had crushes as I was just weird. I love you, my crunchy crush

one year anniversary / dad's bday dinner

The first half of today was staying at home with Tin. It happened that today was my dad's birthday. I left home in a rush.... so sorry that I left Tin on our anniversary.... Darling bee, you know I love you right?

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Tonne ate a lot tonight.... it was a 4 people's set dinner....


Darling, today is our anniversary. What does it mean to Ton? The passed one year was my journal to happiness. Before I met you I thought I would let no guy into my world. I thought I could never find love. I thought there s no lost half of mine exist.
I was a sad person. I looked happy in the outside world. But inside my little world, I felt very lonely and thought no one could possibly share my world. I did experience some dramas in the past.... not only about those random guys... Maybe I had to go through all of the dramas to meet you. Maybe we have to doubt and feel shameful before we truly believe and accept this relationship. I believe it s our fate to fall in love. I believe all the awkwardness and doubt in our past lead us here. Sometimes i think the reason why we truly fell for each other is becoz we took everything slowly, we didnt kiss frequently, we didnt use the words 'miss', 'love'  'darling', 'honey', 'babe' excessively, we were patient to each other and accepted each other completely. Darling, the passed one year was the most wonderful time in my life. Not only I have found the love of my life, but also I became a better person. You have improved me. Because of your love, I can live for less. Because of your love, I feel that nothing else is important.
Honey, happy anniversary~
I love you~

And some Kissing Cups

Two regular Chai Lattes looking at each other. Kissing one another too perhaps. 

An Angel, A Candy........

The Guardian Angel. Still there, making coffee. As he attends to his job daily, I continue doing my daily duty- loving Sweetheart.



The red candy is there. Maybe I will get one. And eat it. On video. And send it to Sweetheart. She would be devastated.

An Anniversary Part 2

Two regular Chai Lattes. From the one and only Gloria Jeans. Our Gloria Jeans. The coffee isn't brilliant. But the companionship is divine.

How I would have loved to have Sweetheart with me. So she could drink that regular Chai Latte, whilst I tried to get her to look at  me.

One year with Sweetheart. And my love only grows daily.

An Anniversary Part 1

After work, me in front of our beloved REB. Many good memories. Actually just two. Meeting Ton on my birthday. And holding Ton on a date (whilst a homeless person was nearby).

Sweetheart's umbrella. All my fondest memories of Melbourne are with Sweetheart. Maybe what this picture means then is: me and all of Melbourne are under her Umbrella-ella-ella.

A day with Tonne

Tonne's

I bought this skirt at the end... not that white top tho

Our signature bow tie

Red doesnt suit me... didnt get this knit dress

I bought this top at the end

Trying on the skirt carefully

I have to resist.... I cant buy this>.<

Tonne is happy just to play with the dress

My love, what else would you like?

My friends asked me what have I prepared for Tin's birthday? They often give me the ohhh-i-see looks after I told them I gave Tin a card.  They asked what did I give Tin for christmas and gave me the how-come looks after I told them I didnt give Tin anything. They gave me the ohh-you-guys-are-poor looks when they heard we dont really celebrate valentine's day. I often say nothing but smile to those topics as I need not to explain to the others how much we love each other, as I dont need some gifts on occasions to remind me I am in love, as I know what I am having is love.....

On valentine's day, you told me you thought you could do more and asked me what else do I want. Darling, what else can I ask for? We have given each other our heart. It s impossible that we could give more as we have already given ourselves away to each other. We know that well,

We prepare gifts for each other out of affections regardless of the occasions and timing. We prepared those gifts because we want each other to be happy more than anything. We do nice things for each other not because we try to impress or we have done something wrong or we need to celebrate like the rest of the world. We do nice things for each other because the excessive affection inside us overflows and we really need to express it. Because making each other happy is like our natural needs. There s no sad-alone or happy-alone in this relationship.

The above is inspired by Tin. I am so happy and touched by his previous entry. I wrote this not because I need to respond to it. It s because my heart is flooded by affections. And this is the only way out.

I know this is love that we have. Coz what else can it be if it isnt love?

Sweetheart, trapped by studying material.

Be strong Sweetness. You can do it. 

Number 1

1st thought that enters my mind in the morning
1st sweetheart
1st lady i've kissed
1st lady who stole my heart
1st to bring me happiness
1st to make me lose my mind
1st to have stolen my reason
1st to have influenced my life so much
1st to be cherished by me
1st i've fed air cake to
1st who's voice to me is so melodic
1st whom I will do anything for

But what is she the last at?
Last thought before I go to bed.

The first and last: Sweetheart, lady I will kiss, to steal my heart, to bring me happiness, to make me lose my mind, to steal my reason, to influence my life so much, to be cherished by me, to be fed air cake to, person whose voice is melodic and I will do anything for.

The Cross-Legged, Vintage, Bow-Tied Ton

Now it s your turn, i will check my email every 5 min

My List

Yesterday was the most terrible day of my life. I don't ever want to leave you. I thought you're feelings may change, maybe you may not look at me the same way again. That worried me as I sat at the concert. I could not focus. I was there with my cousin and Brinthy but I hardly paid attention to them. But I decided, I will not be ashamed of myself any longer. I will be a better person and be more of all those good qualities I know I can be. I refuse to be scared of facing you. I have given you more of myself than any person. I don't want any of that which I gave back. I want you to have them and not see me as perfect, but just as some guy. But that some guy cherishes you. That some guy will only cherish you. You are to his eyes still perfect. You are the only person he can love.

I truly am sorry for the harm I have done. To think I could hurt the only girl I have loved in this way, to make her question her past year like this, that makes me sick the most. But I will not allow you to question my love for you. I tried to look at my memories, I looked at our videos and the gifts you gave me. I love you, there is no denying. Maybe it's harder to see for me your love for me because you think I am not the same guy. But I love you. But as I said, my fate is sealed. I will love you. It cannot be helped. If you stop loving me, perhaps that will change. But I don't want it to. I am quite certain if you stop talking to me, I will continue to love you.

I cannot bear you so sad. I don't want you to be so sad you must cut your hair. I want you to feel my love for you and hope it will cheer you up. I do not see you as difficult or stubborn, I have never thought about it (except when you refuse to look at me when I just want to feed you some air cake). You are as lovely as ever to me. I don't notice those characteristics you may/may not have. I only see the reasons I love you. Maybe that is why I feel I am not good enough for you. But if you love me, then I will not question whether I am good enough or not. I don't want you to be so sad or cry so much. All this while I have just wanted to hug you.

I do feel the distance sometimes between us, but it does not depress me as much as you. I still feel overwhelming affection, and even one text by you when I don't expect it is enough to cheer me up. The distance is hard, but I am yours. That is not going to change by physical distance. As to 'mental' distance, if we are honest with each other, it will not be so bad. That's why I always 'drown' you in my affection, so you have some idea of what is going through my mind- my endless affection for you.

I don't want to do this separation. If you keep wanting to test this relationship, I will do as you wish. But I want you to stop it, text me and return online. If you feel that way, I will be online instantly or text instantly. But if this is necessary, I will understand that.

As for the list, you are on my list. There is 'Love Ton'. But because I can't communicate with you, it says 'Love Ton- blog'. So I will return to this blog. I will wait. I have waited my whole life to meet you, it will take more than this to allow you to leave my heart. I am here. Waiting for you.

Please don't cry sweetheart. Send me a picture yourself with short hair, it will look adorable I bet. Be strong sweetheart. I am here for you.

The list

Maybe they are just some small issues. Maybe I shouldnt feel bad. Maybe it is ridiculous that I dont know how to face you. Maybe there are somethings you had done in the past are bad choices. Maybe I am just stubborn. That s me the girl you once loved.

I am not perfect either. I think a lot. I always make you upset in one way or the other. I am stubborn and sort of an idealist. But that's me, the girl you once loved.

I knew I needed some time, it s not becoz of the facts themselves. They are unimportant and they have passed. Its because the facts had added some distance between us. I didnt know how to face you and you didnt know how to face me. We were both very upset. And I didnt know how to make us both feel better. I am not a cheerful girl. Yes, that difficult girl is the girl you once loved

I needed some time. Thats all I know. I didnt even know how much time I need. I thought I had to live my life and see what will happen. I thought I will feel better after a nap. I went to sleep. I browsed around my room. I took a pair scissors and cut my hair.  I have short hair now(I never had short hair according to my memory). These are not normal. I still felt heartache. I still cried soundlessly all the time. I thought I really needed a good rest. I went to bed, my tears kept coming out and I couldnt sleep. I suddenly realised all my pains and crying werent becoz of what happened. It s because I missed you and the silence between us depressed me. I couldnt pretend I could stop loving you while I am very much loving you. The pictures of our past kept flasing in front of me and kept my eyes teary. It made me realise Ton never wants to forget Tin. That's me, the girl you once love.

I am not perfect. I am very difficult and complex. It s my turn to give you all the opportunities for you to change your mind about me. I dont need you to be 'perfect'. Coz in my mind, at this very moment you are still perfect despite everything. I finally realised it s true that perfection is subjective. Because I love you so and that makes me blind and biased. And I believe all a happy relationship takes is two people who are very much in love with each other. I just want to let you know. It s not what had happened in the past depressed me. It s the distance, silence and sadness it brought to us depressed me and made me feel powerless as I didnt know how to repair the crack, as I didnt know how to make us feel better. Maybe you wont check this blog anymore. Maybe your feeling has changed. Maybe you dont love me anymore. Maybe you dont want this anymore. I still hope I am the girl you love. I still hope I am in your to do list. And I only want to be in your list but no one else.
Loving you is the only item in my must do list.

The Model Sweetheart

I could stay up all night
Trying to enumerate the ways
How her loveliness never causes plight
But such a task would take days.

She is the perfect lady to love
As her beauty is beyond reason
But her other qualities raise this dove,
Such loveliness and character, the God's think it treason.

She drifts passed on clouds of cuteness
Making my thoughts fragment
Many a time I have been a witness
Of how her presence is the sweetest scent.

On and on I can go
Lost in images that cannot find words
I just asks that she moves slow
So I may appreciate the best of all birds.

Days of tins and tins

Lunch-ing~

At my uncle's. Tired tonne.....

Abandon-ed tin for the night scene.....I shouldnt have done it.... Tin waited for Ton until 3am....

Ti* has something to say

I have just one thing to say.

I hope it does not get repetitive.

I hope you feel the weight of the words.

I hope it makes you happier.

Elevating you six inches off the ground.

Comforting you when you most need it.

Providing you that long distance hug.

And giving you faith.

I love you Sweetheart.

Ton has something to say

Here is a picture of the mumbling tonne. Seems that she has something to say.....: I love you, tin tin. Fly to hk, tin tin....

Who do I love?

                                                           You!!
                                  (sorry it's late and I really am a mess)

I wish I was holding Ton instead of the Camera

                        Just before the concert. It was the only way i could think to get all of me in a picture.

Bare

Today has been a day simliar to the previous,
Despite the activity, Ton arrives in my mind, so devious.
So it happens what I do most of the day is ponder,
How she may be the 8th Wonder.

How strange it is that she is everywhere,
So close at times I want to play with her hair.
In that discounted Marks & Spencer dress (top),
Before I begin describing how beautiful, she woud say "Stop".

The constant travel must have made Sweetheart tired,
In the sea of affection I would have her mired.
To make sure she understands,
The melody played by the band,
Is still one of love and care,
Thus my affection I lay bare.

Another day with Tin

 Another day with Tin  even Ton didnt talk with him and was out for the whole day....How did that happen? Coz Ton always carries him in her heart. She always goes out with Tin in her heart.... Ton guesses Tin should be very familiar with HK by now....

    

Ton and her parents went to visit many frens and relatives today. They only left at 9 p.m for Festival Walk... All the shops were closed there. Mum couldnt shop hahaha

Ton in her new top.... it wasnt a dress... it is a size 16 discounted top from marks and spencer.... only Tonne can fit into it....

According to what the others have told Ton, the tree behind stands for "luck in love".....Ton has a lot luck in love coz she has the best guy in the world already. But greedy one still what more of his love....

Somehow many people were taking pictures there....Curious Ton wondered why.... so.... she took some pictures too....*shy